Bamboo cultivation can be a metaphor for life:
sometimes you have to pay attention, others you have to leave it alone to thrive by itself.
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Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Mad as Hell

“I’m mad as hell and I’m not going to take it anymore.”


How often have we heard that?  Did he/she continue to take it, just spouting off steam, or actually take the bull by the horns and vault over the beast that caused such passion to blossom?

It’s probably difficult to determine which monumental decisions occurred from “mad as hell” 
decisions versus organically grown passion, but a few plucked out of recent history seem clear:


  • Osama bin Laden’s decision to form al Qaeda to strike back at the great Satan, US of A for perceived sleights against Islam;

  • George W. Bush reaction to pursue bin Laden and al Quaeda into it’s various recesses of the globe after the 9/11 attacks with commercial aircraft;

  • Mohamed Bouazizi’s decision in Tunis to set himself on fire to protest his treatment by city officials in which they routinely confiscated his street-vending cart of vegetables. This act initiated the movements that swept North Africa and the Middle East, known collectively as The Arab Spring.


While my motivations pale in comparison to these great earth-rattling decisions, they are no less heartfelt.  On March 9th, 2012, my long-time friend and teacher, Leonard Lamaar/Robin Tolbert died of a massive heart attack, brought on by years of smoking, poorly treated high blood pressure, and cumulative decisions to not improve his diet when given ample opportunity.  Larry, as many of us called him, was a very stern and gruff individual, but held an enormous capacity to love all of us by seeking to teach us every facet of the various martial and internal arts he studied, and he enjoyed immensely learning new things from teachers, books, and media sources.


Why did Larry make such poor choices?  Why do I continue to make poor choices in my own health arena, even though I encouraged him to continually change his habits?  Why do any of us make poor choices?  Is it due to an unchangeable human nature to seek that which is at once most comfortable and known.

These questions are as difficult to answer as they are to ask.  In August of this year I decided that I needed to take the proverbial bull by the horns, in a challenge presented unwittingly by Larry's life and death.  I left my long-time employment with one company, and decided to teach Tai Chi full time. This is my one chance to see if I can put all of Larry's teaching into practice, see if the sum of all his learning can help me to become a better person, and develop a way to help others learn of Tai Chi and the internal Chinese martial arts.  

I am now the Tai Chi instructor for Pro Martial Arts in Cranberry Township, PA, where I'll be teaching Yang Family Style Tai Chi and Qi Gong, and am separately presenting Tai Chi/relaxation classes for free to several senior centers in Western PA. 

Let's see, Mr. Tolbert, if I can live up to the spirit you presented, and make a good decision on my path forward.

..Alex.

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